Growth is painful

I've been learning a lot about how I love this year, which is very a pros po considering I dubbed this the year of love. Growth in general is hard. My friends and I were just talking about it at breakfast today. Growth requires pain. When we're younger and we experience "growing pain" it's physically agonizing. Our bodies are literally ripping apart stretching our muscles and bones. Of course some have more painful experiences than other but those are often the ones who experience incredible growth spurts. I don't remember having growing pains when I was younger. Not physically anyway. I'm also very short, even for a girl. I did have a lot of headaches and emotionally painful experiences so I'd like to think I'm more emotionally mature than others when I allow myself to experience that side of myself. I guess I've just been doing a lot of growing this year. The universe has seen fit to challenge, not only myself, but also a lot of my close friends. The universe is crazy sometimes. This year I've been saying this one saying A LOT: "The universe is very generous in it's lessons. If you cannot learn it the first time the universe will continue to grant you lessons until you do." Often times though, the second lesson is harder than the first. It doesn't get easier. I've heard the universe this year. I'm just not ready to begin the work to demonstrate that the lesson has been learned. Be patient with me Uni. I appreciate the faith you have in my ability to grow, but there have been many lessons this year. This body of work is fragile.

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Anywho,  I was going to post something old because I wasn't quite sure if I was ready to post this yet. Which is a clear sin that I should definitely post it. (Discomfort = growth). So here it is.

In response: "I can't imagine what it would be like to love someone you knew wasn't going to stay."

SNOWFLAKE

This love is a snowflake

Not because it is unique

But because it  is fleeting

We saw that from the start

Still we opened up our hearts

We knew better

Maybe we just need each other

Something temporarily permanent to hold onto

Grounding us to this moment

To feel like we belonged

To someone or something

Before the world became unraveled

Or is it as simple as we are lonely

We need someone to fill our empty spaces

Lately, we've been asking for more concrete than melting ice

While we dissolve into more temporary than permanent

We can't help it

It's all just slipping through our fingers

We watch

The snowflake slowly ebbing away

We wait

For the right time to let go

We hope

It isn't any time soon

We feel

The cold of the water through our gloves

We know we still need each other

We're still lonely

We would rather have something temporary to belong to

We would rather melt into each other if it would fill our empty places

Grounding us in this moment

Preparing us for the moment

Maybe all love is a snowflake

Because it is fleeting

And we are all snowballs

Taking and giving

Tumbling down a mountain

We just fall