Remember Me

Dedicated to my cuzzo AJ I can't wait to see you at your graduation! I'm so proud of you for making it through. YOU'RE GOING TO BE A MARINE!!! I'm scared to death for you but mostly I'm so proud of you!

Remember Me

Remember me kindly and I'll do the same
When wind whispers stories wild and untamed
Trees will tell wings and they'll go a flight
Causing altered young leaves to rustle and fight

Allow rain sleet and snow to wash clear you mind
Dark clouds cannot harm you there's no need to hide
When sun will not shine above Earth and Sea
Pull forth from your memory what we used to be

Recall all the times when we sat and we smiled
The sweet conversation that used to run wild
Come back to this moment, this dust of joy
And beam though you feel like a pawn or a toy

I am the chatter, I am the friend
I am the love giving life till the end
When your soul is shattered like pieces of glass
I'll be there to help gather the mass

Once the time comes for our inevitable part
I"ll be the laughter deep down in your heart
I'll ease the pain; I'll help you smile
So hope and blithe may claim you awhile

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I had to dig into my '05 vault to find this for him but i'm glad i found it. I think maybe I'll post some other old stuff as well. =D

CUZZO CLAN IS THE BEST FAM BAM!

On Staying

Hey. Remember when I said I loved you, and I lied. I swear I didn’t mean it; the lie, not the love. I fully intended to love you. I went through all the emotions. Forced myself to feel the pains but it turns out my love was lame. As in lying broken and defeated.

Somehow, through all the lies your love was true. I could see it running deep in you. I wanted to run to it too but I ran from it. You scared the bejesus out of me getting down on one knee proposing that we should marry. How unfair would that be? You loving all of me.

I guess I didn’t love you see, I loved you like: get your ass out of bed. I can’t date a fool and your mom is breathing down my neck because you haven’t graduated yet.

I should have loved you like: Stay, stay. Don’t you ever go away. I want our future to always be this way.

New direction

I found that in between my failures in dating I can also use this as a means to show case my poetic ability?!? Why be a one trick pony?!?

So from here on out I shall also share my poetry so I can poetically fail at dating. Yay me!

EPIC FAIL!

So I was looking through my Facebook to find a post about this particular fail of mine.. I guess it wasn't a post it was a text or something I wrote somewhere else but looking through it I realized that my biggest and most EPIC fail moment... is not noticing that the guy I spent a majority of my life crushing on actually did like me back!... there were hints EVERYWHERE but I'm the worlds biggest idiot. How did I not see that?

It's not even that I'm reading to far into it. That I'm turning little things into signs. This isn't "he's just not that into you". HE WAS INTO ME!! but I am a retard! and now the opportunity has passed because WOW... I hate you Facebook.

P.S. I hope he doesn't read this. eek!

COSMO

soo... I haven't posted anything about my failing at dating because I've been so poet/writer addicted. So just before I clock in I'd like to share one.

When I first started working at Express, I decided to put some Cosmo article about flirting to the test. Honestly, I didn't think it would work because I have Retentive UDS, but it did! A lot of the key things the article suggested were eye contact, physical contact, attentive (using things he says in your next sentence). Little things that really get a guys attention. I couldnt believe it worked!

The first time i tried it on a midly attractive fellow and i mostly used eye contact and being attentive and if i tried a little harder i probably could have gotten a number but I wasn't single yet so that would not have been good.

I miss my COMPUTER!!!

So... I've been posting via ipad and phone recently because my computer is buuhrrroken!!! n I miss it ever so much.

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SORRY I got disstracted by american idol and OMG... WHY ARE THEY LIP SINGING!?!?!?! LAME!!!!

James Durben u should have been a finalist. I love my country boy but James was better. I think I'll come back to this after American Idol

I AM UPSET!!!!

Lauren should have won!

Anyway, I miss my computer. Blogging and Facebook and watching shows on hulu and stuff would be sooo much easier... I have a lot to say. like the conversation i had with my uncle the other day. and other fail moments none that happened recently but yeah... ok i need to sleep.

Ugly Duckling Syndrome

I finished it. I had time to kill and I sat down with it and I like it! I hope you do too!

UDS


You are so hot! Is not something I hear very often. I heard it a lot as a kid followed by my mom telling me I was running a fever. I hear cute, a lot. You are so cute! Is annoying, because some woman is simultaneously pinching your cheeks; which by the way, I hate. Yes, they are chubby. Yes, its cute. No, they are not public property, don't touch me.

Cute, is also what a guy says when you're not 'pretty'. Thank God I'm a bitch because I'd hate to be nice. We all know what nice means. No one wants to say it out loud but 'nice' means - actually I don't want to be the to say it out loud either. It's like one step down from cute and cute isn't that much of an upgrade. It goes: nice, cute, pretty, hot and sexy I think is in it's own little category right because you can be cute and sexy. Then theres all the other rankings and combinations, but if I had to break it down into classes those would be mine.