Just a kiss... ?!?!

... That I didn't want!!! or ask for!!

Scenario:

My mom set me up on a date. Yeah, already a bad idea right? But I figured why not try it out? I had just started dating again I wasn't really meeting anyone new and I had met the guy once before so why not! Not like it was a blind date with my mom's co-worker's relative. Oh hindsight how I wish you were foresight.

The beginning of the night went really well. The "date" went well also. He picked me up from home. We went to this sushi place and it was yummy! They were closing so we went to Denny's for dessert. Since we were having fun we went to this other Japanese place and before we knew it, it was 2 ish?

The problem wasn't the date. Or him for that matter I guess. The problem was when I started thinking, Hey, this guys kinda awesome. We could end up being really great friends. 


And there it was. He was mentally friend zoned. I don't know exactly when or where it happened but it did. I just didn't see us getting any closer than we already were at that moment. I thought he was on the same page. I mean there was no connection! I thought!

Apparently, we were on two very different pages. Maybe two different books because when he dropped me off at my door I was going in for a hug and the next thing I knew I was being kissed!

What the ef word! How did I send out the wrong signals? Was I being too friendly? Did I not lean away far enough? I GUESS NOT!!!

The moments that followed were awkward. The kiss was a peck but it was enough to make the next words he uttered cause me to shy farther away from him in reluctance to say "Not anytime soon".

"Well I had fun, when can we do this again?"

Goodness never I hope.

The kiss at least. I would have been okay with us hanging out again as friends. He was a great guy. Just not great to be my guy?!?! I don't know I just didn't feel the chemistry.

Why do I consider this a fail? I failed at properly displaying that I didn't see this relationship going any further than friendship. What was I supposed to do though?