I have rules. I have guidelines, you know? I follow them pretty strictly, except for when I don't, which is more often than I'd like. Not too long ago I told my friend that rules were meant to be broken. I told her that the we're all looking for the one person who is the exception to the rule. Now tell me that isn't true.
Maybe I'm just rationalizing as I so often do, but I feel safe. I don't feel scared or terrified to take this leap. So I'm adding an addendum to my rules. If they break more three or more rules and you still want to test the waters, then break every rule, but do so with caution. However, don't hold it against him if you get hurt. You decided to continue down this path. A path you knew full well had the potential to do massive harm, but you kept right on it because you also knew, if it worked out, it had the potential to be amazing. Who wants to regret amazing?
There's huge risks involved in dating the man who breaks all the rules, but without risks there can be no great rewards. I may still be broken and healing, but I will not allow my broken to keep me from what might be the best thing to ever happen to me. That would be the saddest thing of all. To find myself alone because I married myself to fear.
Here's a little something I started working on last night. Still a work in progress but I'm already falling in love with it.
Puppy Love
You speak in definites
Like this is truth
and will be forever
Child, you have not learned how short forever is
But I want to believe
So I let you speak indefinitely
You are declarative
Professing eternal love
As if it could be granted like a wish
Youth, knows not how fleeting love is
Or that wishes made by Genie come with consequence
I know this - still I breath them in
You look like trust
Like promises never break
Like they are made of sturdy
Like looks aren't deceiving
Only innocence thinks this can't get dirty
But I want to make this work
I will give in to your definites
Listen to you declarative
Find faith in your trust
I will open doors and drop bridges
Let you see past the stitches
Not run and hide
If you promise
Simply promise
You will not treat my heart like a joke
Or see my surrender and choke
Do not lead me on with a hoax
But be certain
For I am too grown to want to start again
once you've learned how love can fade
in the short amount of time forever gave
