I find inspiration in so many random things. I love how this piece evolved from what I intended it to be to what it became. It's so much more fun this way. Anywho, I met this guy the other night and when I first saw him I thought: Well damn, he's cute! Then he tried to dance with me and I was fine with it until some girl came up to him. Now, I've been caught in too many love triangles, I'm not about to make the same mistake again, so I bolted. Then he found me again and he gave me the most adorable cheesy smile and I was hooked. What can I say? My thoughts for the night? Oh this is going to be fun. and it did turn out to be fun. The next day my over active imagination and I got all caught up in a story and then this was born. I'm such a strange little one.
The Gamer
To the man I met last night,
Your most endearing quality
was that cheese ball smile you gave when you found me for a second time that night.
I saw you as a child
Before you learned to play games
Eventually, it was obvious
You have learned to play too well
So I wrote out our story
Before it could hurt me
I know how it would start
How it would never leave the ground
because I'd never find the strength to trust the man I see before me
How it could never work
because you won't know how to let go of the hurt that taught you to play
How we would dance around the fun and excitement of a promise we never meant to make
I know how it would start to end
With us pretending we could be more than friends
But then
I can see how we might begin
We would give each a reason to hold on and try again
We could fight and truly put ourselves on the mend
Getting caught up in the plans we never meant to take
We could start a new stage
You'd drop those player ways
I'd have the faith to look for brighter days
Yet as we'd stand
Staring at the moment urging us to take that leap
My doubtful mind would give me pause
Reminding me that those player arms
have not the stamina to hold up a novel and stick it through
And I am Novel
I am the woman your boys warned you about
The one who could turn you whole life around
And you, you would just turn my life upside-down
Oddly,
that's not a good enough reason to walk away
from the challenge I saw in you that night
